Ronny Cammareri, a character in "Moonstruck" was talking to me tonight...his quote below came at me as I was wading through the various conversations I've had today...words spoken by loved ones....their pain, pain for others, tears of dispair, all of it...swimming around in my mind...his words mingled in and ...somehow it summed it all up.

Ronny Cammareri: Loretta, I love you. Not like they told you love is, and I didn't know this either, but love don't make things nice - it ruins everything. It breaks your heart. It makes things a mess. We aren't here to make things perfect. The snowflakes are perfect. The stars are perfect. Not us. Not us! We are here to ruin ourselves and to break our hearts and love the wrong people and *die*. The storybooks are *bullshit*. Now I want you to come upstairs with me and *get* in my bed!

Without the incredibly rich and healing love of God...Ronny's words would be my own. I do agree that we are not meant to make things perfect...and perhaps my heart doesn't yet understand that because there is a sort of relief when I think of Ronny's words. But ultimately, my spirit speaks calmly that yes life is difficult and there are no black and white answers, yet above all the truth is...He cares, He understands and He is available to just sit in this ugly mire of pain with us...