Thursday, March 10, 2005

reading lolita in tehran

came across an exceptional thought by the author, Azar Nafisi...
"I could invent the violin or be devoured by the void."

how does that translate into my life? it seems every day I make choices. do I celebrate unique and commonness within self and others, or do I groan that others are not just celebrating me?

recently, I have been thinking of aspects of life I have yet pursued...what prevents the steps needed to realize those dreams? it may sound funny, but kayaking has sort of been wooing me for years. each time I have sat alone, pushing and gliding through water, I have felt a sort of ecstasy with my world, as if every particle of living about me is quickening towards me and I am embracing it right back. this is not flying to the moon. this is going out of my house, down a few streets, renting a kayak and then moving forward into the dream.

maybe I just rely on tomorrow to take control so I don't have to.

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